February 2012
January 2012
LEO - The B0ss (July 23 - Aug 22) Very organized. Need order in their lives - like being in control. Like boundaries. Tend to take over everything. Bossy. Like to help Others. Social and outgoing. Extroverted. Generous, warm-hearted. Sensitive. Creative energy. Full of themselves. Loving. Doing the right thing is important to Leos. Attractive.
I feel like i am dealing with this alone, I know everyone is effected by this diferently, but i am very close with the family, and i am deeply effected by this.... but i am trying to stay strong for steve. i am told i need to accept it for what it is... chya, easier said then done, and you all don't understand, i was REALLY close to this person.
I miss my girlfriend....
My mind is so cloudy tonight, I cant stop thinking about certain things......
When i think ‘bout certain things, i want to cry,
with certain things,- i can’t stop crying….
I picture certain things, sometimes its the worst, i get worried, i can’t breathe properly, my anxiety hurts me…..Honestly it hurts.
My brain is constantly going through thoughts and possibilities…. should haves, could haves, “if i just would have”s What if’s and maybe it’s. Fuck my life’s and “this can’t be real” shit.
I know everyone handle’s things differently … But when i first heard this I was seriously flipping the fuck out.
Tonight, Michelle told me something happened this weekend that i never ever wanted to be said to me (not again)
Like all i thought about was I thought about what it must have felt for you, what was going through your mind, how much pain you were in….
if you panicked and wanted to stop, but couldn’t ?…. :’(
Then i thought about your face, your smile, your voice, your shortness, your kindness, your everything…
I juuust talked to you on Thursday... We were supposed to chill together on Tuesday…I am having a hard time even believing you actully not coming back, I keep trying to make myself except reality, but it’s really difficult to face the fact your really gone, and i wasnt able to help you more…
But i know your pain is now over my dear friend,
I realize the pain you were in, i related to you on levels others couldn’t understand,
i am deeply saddened,
you were loved Basil, that love will never die,
I want you to know, I love you and i miss you bro.
Jan 28th: There will be a candle lit for you every. year.
You are an amazing person, your spirit will live on in all of us.
You will ALWAYS own a place in my heart….
Looks like i gotta get more ink done aye buddy :)
Rest in paradise always Basil.
20 mins ago i found out that one of my friends ended his life yesterday. :'(
Rest In Paradise Basil M. oxo You will never be forgotten and you will always be missed.
whats the difference, other than the oils, with the testosterone? I'm on cypionate.
Delatestryl is just in a thicker substance. It would be basically the same prescription, nothing is really to different with the changes or anything like that. Its just alot less of a dose then Cypionate.
Delatestryl shortage in Canada...????
Is the shortage over? or still going?
I dont want to have to switch to Cypionate (depo-testosterone)…
Thats like a whole new dose too.. because dylatestryl is thinker in consistency, as it is suspended in sesame oil, Where the depo is thinner and suspended in cotton seed oil.
Plus I like dylatestryl, I dont want to have to make me body keep switching back and forth, & that drastically too. :/
I am going to call the pharmacy tomorrow, I have two shots left (I hope its two),
Ugh.. I don’t want to be switching, I really don’t like that.
