I was jumping at the taste in my mouth after your lips left mine that afternoon I left my door open and the rain got jealous and soaked my bed. I didn’t care. I cared about the glass behind your eyes, the scent that stuck to my skin afterwards.
I no longer care to live, I think I’ll go now…. and end this. I’ll be with my friends, up in the sky, So I wont be alone, No woman no cry…. I CAN’T stop the pain, deep in my soul I’ve tryed and I’ve tryed I give up………… now I’ll go……. Please let me be a thought in your mind. I was a good person, and I diiiiiiiiidreallytry But there’s only so much One person can take. So I’d rather die real Then live & be fake. I feel weak„ my heart slows down Its really going to stop ?! There’s no way out now My body goes into shock Open my eyes, There is blood everyywhere Now I really panic Taking my last breath…. And one… final… stare…..
I knew needed you from the moment I saw you I knew there wasnt a hoop I wouldnt try to jump through I believed and hoped every single day That you had loved me and would feel the same way Could it be true or am I falling into another trap? If I’m being led on, I don’t know if I could handle that Everyone’s waiting to say, “Dude, I told you so” My greatest fear is that they’ll be right when you let me go Sometimes you need to follow your heart and that’s what I chose Let’s have a slow start and see where this goes I’m happy….. yet I’m terrified I almost lost you becuase I lied I never ever will do this again…. I cannot let you go, let’s not even pretend You only live once and I’m taking this risk I just hope this hello ends with a goodbye that’s worth it Taking a chance with you is so familiar now We’ve reached try number 15 some how Here we go again, it doesn’t seem to get old I couldn’t have it end like that, I couldn’t let it go Please don’t regret me, your decision or your wishes I’ll prove to you that I truly want this I want so badly for this to work out Let’s make up for now, Please give me the benefit of the doubt This one last time, You took me back Let’s start a new and get back on track… Leave the past in the past……. And maybe this time around……… ……..we’ll last…….
I AM so piiiiiiissed offfffffff!! atm. ffs! So called my doctor… in a matter of two days she ruined everything i have worked so hard to do…. Not ”comfortable” enough to priscrible me hormones, AAANNDD fuck up my referral to an endocrinologist for hormone therapy… WTF ARE YOU DOING!!! EPIC FAIL…You iiideeeeeeooot. Now I’m fucking back to SQUARE ONE! So fucking thank you SOOOO much!! :@
“If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with.
You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my internet obsession, my tendency to be way too clingy. You fall in love with my troubled past, and my hopes & dreams, and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, your falling in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my preceptionn that nobody could ever love me.
But, you are also falling in love, with the way my blue eyes will smile when I’m with you, the way I’ll msg you in the mornings just to tell you I hope you have a great day. You’re falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you.
But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me….. despite my thinking that it is impossible.” ………:$
“If you’re comfortable with yourself, then it’s sexy. Maybe people think I look sexy because I feel sexy. I am a very liberated person that way. I’m very comfortable with my sexuality, my body, my face - well, sometimes I’m not comfortable with my face, but it’s stuck there and there’s nothing I can do about it.”—
How is it that over the Brief span of time That we’ve spent together I feel Like I’ve know you forever To look into your eyes I see A direct reflection of What lies inside of me And that would be an internal flame That burns on fierce emotions Based on my Desires, wishes and wants That has been fueled by Intimate conversations Mental stimulation and the Mere thought of you So what is one to do I will embrace these feelings and Internalize my thoughts Manifesting them into actions So there will be no questions That I’m here for you and I hope That the same holds true For life isn’t worth living If it has to be lived without you….
“Sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today’s possibility under tomorrow’s rug until we can’t anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying.”—