I LIE Q…………..Always have…and always willll <3
Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you; you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for.
I no longer care to live, I think I’ll go now….
and end this.
I’ll be with my friends, up in the sky,
So I wont be alone, No woman no cry….
I CAN’T stop the pain, deep in my soul
I’ve tryed and I’ve tryed
I give up…………
now I’ll go…….
Please let me be a thought in your mind.
I was a good person,
But there’s only so much
One person can take.
So I’d rather die real
Then live & be fake.
I feel weak„ my heart slows down
Its really going to stop ?!
There’s no way out now
My body goes into shock
Open my eyes,
There is blood everyywhere
Now I really panic
Taking my last breath….
And one… final… stare…..
I knew needed you from the moment I saw you
I knew there wasnt a hoop I wouldnt try to jump through
I believed and hoped every single day
That you had loved me and would feel the same way
Could it be true or am I falling into another trap?
If I’m being led on, I don’t know if I could handle that
Everyone’s waiting to say, “Dude, I told you so”
My greatest fear is that they’ll be right when you let me go
Sometimes you need to follow your heart and that’s what I chose
Let’s have a slow start and see where this goes
I’m happy….. yet I’m terrified
I almost lost you becuase I lied
I never ever will do this again….
I cannot let you go, let’s not even pretend
You only live once and I’m taking this risk
I just hope this hello ends with a goodbye that’s worth it
Taking a chance with you is so familiar now
We’ve reached try number 15 some how
Here we go again, it doesn’t seem to get old
I couldn’t have it end like that, I couldn’t let it go
Please don’t regret me, your decision or your wishes
I’ll prove to you that I truly want this
I want so badly for this to work out
Let’s make up for now, Please give me the benefit of the doubt
This one last time, You took me back
Let’s start a new and get back on track…
Leave the past in the past…….
And maybe this time around………
I AM so piiiiiiissed offfffffff!! atm. ffs!
So called my doctor… in a matter of two days she ruined everything i have worked so hard to do….
Not ”comfortable” enough to priscrible me hormones, AAANNDD fuck up my referral to an endocrinologist for hormone therapy…
WTF ARE YOU DOING!!!
EPIC FAIL…You iiideeeeeeooot.
Now I’m fucking back to SQUARE ONE!
So fucking thank you SOOOO much!! :@
“If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with.
You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my internet obsession, my tendency to be way too clingy. You fall in love with my troubled past, and my hopes & dreams, and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, your falling in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my preceptionn that nobody could ever love me.
But, you are also falling in love, with the way my blue eyes will smile when I’m with you, the way I’ll msg you in the mornings just to tell you I hope you have a great day. You’re falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you.
But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me…..
despite my thinking that it is impossible.”
When stress arises
what we need..
Is to relax
cuddle, in each
skin to skin, cheek to cheek
and let our hearts
dictate the rhythm
of our evening…<3